In a new memoir/self-help book called Finding Peace Amid the Chaos: My Escape from Depression and Suicide, Tanya recounts the horrific death of Nicole Brown and the long journey of recovery for her family.
Only 24 at the time of the murder, Tanya remembers waking up to her sister Denise‘s screams of “She’s dead! He killed her! Coco’s dead!” in June 1994. “Coco” was the family’s nickname for Nicole, 35 at the time of her death.
The killing of Nicole and her friend Ron Goldman outside Nicole’s Brentwood home sparked off a year-long ‘trial of the century’ where O.J. was charged with, and eventually acquitted of, the murder. This was after the infamous slow-speed chase O.J. led police on as he tried to escape in his white Bronco, watched on live TV by thousands.
Tanya reveals she spent years struggling with depression after the incident, even ending up on a psych ward for a time after she came close to suicide. Now 44, she is working as a life coach and mental-health advocate, and opens up about never-before-heard details in the book.
Among the many things that Tanya shares, some are simply bone-chilling – for example, arriving at Nicole’s home after the murder to find someone desperately trying to wash all the blood off the steps before the family got there.
She also reveals that O.J. called her from jail and said, “You know I loved your sister, right? C’mon … I would have taken a bullet for her”, which led to Tanya’s conviction that he did in fact kill her sister.
“I don’t forget, but I do forgive. So I can move on,” says Tanya. “This whole thing is about changing lives and giving people hope. There’s joy after pain, but you have to let the anger go.”